A fine suit made just for me. From the best fabrics. By the best tailor. Paired with the best bespoke shoes. A suit that would see me through the immigration checkpoints of difficult countries. A suit that would convince readers that the man in the author photo has a sense of taste beyond the Brooklyn consensus of plaid shirt and pouf of graying hair.
This article was featured in the One Story to Read Today newsletter. Sign up for it here. Check out more from this issue and find your next story to read. The suit would serve as the perfect carapace for a personality overly dependent on anxious humor and jaundiced wit, a personality that I have been trying to develop since I saw my lightly mustached punim in the mirror as a pubescent boy and thought, How will I ever find love? The suit would transcend my physicality and bond with my personality directly.
Gary and his suit are here now. Before there is a suit, there is a body, and the body is terrible. Being short is fine, but those missing inches are wedded to a narrow-shouldered body of zero distinction.
Although I am of Russian and Jewish extraction, the continent whose clothing stores make me feel most at ease is Asia. I once bought an off-the-rack jacket in Bangkok after the clerk examined me for all of three seconds.
However, this is not exactly an Asian body either, especially when I contrast myself with the natural slimness of most of my Asian friends. Some hideously mismanaged childhood vaccination in Leningrad created a thick keloid scar running the length of my right shoulder.
