For the third time in my life last night, I saw Deftones live and each time I watch them live I grow to love them more. They have been my favorite band since I was a misfit 14 year old girl, hanging out in my room, alone, raging angst and hormones galore with a love for aberrant film and anything I could get my hands on to listen to which meant raiding my older brother's music collection.
They resonate deep with me and have been there through my best moments in life and a beautiful distraction during the worst times. The first person I ever fell in love with was because of our deep love for Deftones, and I still look at those days fondly--we remain friends 12 years later and continue to share a deep bond formed through our favorite metal group.
Not too long ago, when I was with friends at Disneyland heading to the Indiana Jones ride, one of my friends mentioned how Harrison Ford played a huge part in her sexual awakening because those are the types of conversations you have at a family friendly theme park. Well at least if you're hanging out with the group of gals I was with, but I digress-- It didn't surprise me too much. I think Harrison Ford helped a lot of young girls and boys realize their sexuality with the Indiana Jones series and Star Wars franchise.
It was during that conversation I realized that Deftones' "White Pony" was my awakening. When I regaled to her that a Deftones album was the start of my sexual awakening, she was surprised. She made a pretty obvious but thoughtful statement--not too many people have an awakening like this through music. I've never done anything by the book, so no shock I would be the odd one out. But "White Pony" is the album that opened the floodgates--this is when I became Tina Belcher in maximum overdrive.
Could you blame an adolescent girl coming to terms with her sexuality while listening to "Passenger"? Now to calm me Take me around again Just don't pull over This time would you please Drive faster. The song on its own oozes sex--the breathy vocals, the guitar arrangement, the crescendo and decrescendo of the drums. The lyrics are subtle yet transparent. Sure, the lyrics indicate it's about driving but everyone and their great grandmother knows it's about fucking and passion and love.
